Oh my goodness! I don’t know why I proceed to be shocked by the large emotions on the primary day of faculty, however right here I’m as soon as once more, sitting at my desk with dried tears on my cheeks and a swirl of feelings in my chest.
For the final two weeks, I’ve been solely targeted on supporting and constructing Connor as much as get her prepared for second grade. In between chaperoning playdates and adventures along with her lady gang, there’ve been just a few “I don’t need to return to highschool” moments, with plenty of tears and hugs.
The previous few days have been spent making ready, planning and attempting to get her braced for the primary day. We’ve packed baggage, talked about issues to stay up for, deliberate outfits — I’ve at all times believed that for those who’re anxious a couple of transition that it at all times helps to organize as a lot as you may, in order that’s what we did.
When El Hub and I walked her to her classroom this morning, she was in good spirits — a little bit nervous however nonetheless cheerful. After she dropped off her backpack and mentioned hello to her trainer, she walked into the classroom with out trying again. No tears in any respect, which was nice!
As soon as we walked away from the classroom, although, I cried, which I didn’t anticipate in any respect. You understand that good friend you’ve gotten who is ok till she’s not? That’s me, LOL!
It’s the depth of the sentiments that shock me. What I do know deep down is that someday she actually received’t want me; she’ll stroll by a door and received’t look again, and although logically I do know that’ll be a superb factor, a part of me is having a tough time accepting it.
So, I attempt to joyfully be current for the transient time I’ve along with her. One of many unusual blessings that comes with having a toddler in your 40s is that you simply grow to be so aware of the passing of time. I understand how shortly these years will cross. Within the blink of an eye fixed 10 years will fly by and he or she’ll be going into her senior yr of highschool. Craziness!
Anyway, earlier than I begin crying once more, on a considerably random beauty-related be aware, this was the primary yr El Hub has been in a position to be house for the primary day of faculty, so I had all these plans to place make-up on this morning so he may take a “proof of mother” image of me and Connor.
I ended up solely having time to do my hair and placed on tinted sunscreen, so my goals of trying at the very least semi-decent didn’t occur, LOL!
I’m going to Ulta and Sephora to purchase a gift for a good friend and to do some looking to cheer myself up. If there’s something you’ve discovered currently that you simply’ve been actually into, let me know. I may use the distraction.
Ship a digital hug this fashion, will ya?
Your pleasant neighborhood magnificence addict,
Karen
